Wednesday, November 17, 2010


Am I a Wide-Eyed Idealist? As in...not the "oh she's so good, look at her, what a SAINT!" I mean..."dumbass, you can't save the world" type.

For a little while now, I've figured 2010 is the year life decided to bitch-slap me and a few people I know. We could do much worst. We could be stuck in Darfur in the middle of a holocaust. We could be on the streets, panhandling and sleeping in the back of strip clubs. But though I'm living a perfect life by comparison, the kids I know are living lives that might as well have been copied down from a really bad fanfiction.

This guy and I broke up a while back, and I have soon discovered it didn't even NEED to happen. But it did...

There's a girl, let's trouble. Badly. At the moment, she feels almost like a kid stuck in an after school special. My friend doesn't believe her. She could be lying. But I've chosen to believe her. And so has Shadow. She has told us each separate secrets that we told each other so we could figure something out.

But things are going downhill. I being stupid? Emily's right. I can't be Atlas. I'm not strong, fast, smart, or even have connections. I'm quoting Kickass here when I say like most people my age, I just exist. And it's selfish, because I want to do something so I won't stay empty and without purpose. I've always hated bystanders, in both fiction and real life, but what can I do?

Not only is it truly stupid to even consider it, I'm being more of an idiot thinking I can actually do anything. So I'll have to plan. I'll have to do more than just speaking...and at the same time, I can't put myself in danger. Which I mean...this isn't a story. If I do something stupid, the power of Good isn't going to help me. In the least. First I have to know if I'm even going to do anything good. If I'm not just damaging her situation more.

What confused me the most was what some of us can say. We can speak with such criticism of the world and make ourselves appear like we understand more than selfish idiots but...

If we don't want to do anything, are we being a selfish asshole? Or are we being realistic and smart?

Who knows by this point. Maybe I'm just being an idiot.

Not like there's anything I can do till I get more information.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

On Gay Marriage

So today...interesting college class >.>

For homework last week, I had to read two articles and answer questions about them. The articles were called "Adam and Steve - Together at Last" and "A Case Against Marriage."

Both articles were actually very well written, especially "A Case Against Marriage" because it didn't bail out and use the common "IT'S AGAINST GOD!" argument. In fact, the writer argued against such a thing.

So today in my English class, our teacher asked us who was against gay marriage. She wrote down the names, and then divided us into groups. Each group had 6 people, 3 for gay marriage, and 3 against. But here's the thing...she wrote down names of those that were against, and put them pro....and vise versa.

Now I got lucky. I actually got put in pro and was beaming and laughing in Silvia's face because she got put in against and we're both pro-gay marriage. But as soon as we were suppose to be getting in our groups, I remembered Carla, who's been sort of my math-buddy and has given me a lot of advice. She's pro...and gay.

Guess what view point she had to argue for?

As I passed her, I saw she was pale, but I went to sit down either way, even as she mumbled "against" when I asked her what side she got put on. In my group, my two partners were against, and they had no idea what to argue for. Me? I was jotting down ideas in two seconds flat.

Then I hear them talking. "What's wrong with Carla?" one of them asks, I turn around and see her. She's standing by the teacher's desk, her face is red, and she's crying.

Carla has already told me that gay marriage is sort of a very emotional issue for her, but to have her argue for the opposing side? It was killing her, and I could see it. Carla's gone through a lot of shit, and her sexuality isn't really the main cause of all her problems.

So I hear my name getting called from the teacher's side. My effing foot gets stuck in the side of the chair, but I jump up and run there. They tell me to switch sides and take Carla's place so she can argue for yes. I'm nodding and saying, "Yeah, sure, yeah, it's okay, Carla. You can go there, so yeah, yeah,"

(That's how I talk >.>)

So anyways, now, Silvia can laugh in my face because me and her are stuck in Against Gay Marriage. Thing was, she wasn't in my group, but me and her were standing there with Jennifer just trying to think of argument points. Jen is in debate, so she used that to her advantage. Describe the term, and start with bullet points on that.

We knew everyone was going to use the against religion/affects children/should be private, not public/etc argument points. Since they're such bullshitty arguments (not to mention really easy to shoot down) we had to think of something else.

We went to the approach of "We're not against gays, just don't marry."

It's what I said anyways. I said that they could do what they wanted, whether public or private. Jen came up with another point, and it became our main arguing point. They can have all the benefits of marriage when together, and in fact, they could have an institution were they are joined legally for the benefits. Yet in the eyes of the church and state, the gays wouldn't be married.

And when we presented our case (especially when we said this had nothing to do with the church, and how we didn't care what gays did) the rest of the group just started blinking...a lot. One of the seniors couldn't even figure out if we were going on the for or against.

The way Jen was speaking, it was almost believable, simply because she's charismatic like that. just didn't make sense.

I mean, it's so stupid. Being in the argument made me realize that there's just no possible way to argue against gay marriage. And I was trying. Honest to god trying to figure it out. Not because I'm against gay marriage, but because I wanted to win the argument (that's just the type of person I am...)

But I couldn't.
  • You can't argue with religion, because just as the bible has some good ideas, it has stupid as hell rules, some--no, most even downright inhumane.
  • You can't say the nation was founded with Christian values, because not all the Founding Fathers were Christian. Besides, separation of church and state anyone?
  • You can't say it would affect children, because not only is there no actual research that proves such a thing, with that point of view, then everyone should be straight, because almost nobody has gay parents (so really, explain how gay kids come out of families with straight parents?). 
  • You can't say it's because marriage is about having children, because it's not like infertile people are denied marriage. 
  • You can't say people would marry as gays to gain the benefits, because you don't need gay marriage for people to attempt to trick the state; they can do that with regular marriage. 
  • You can't say it would make others uncomfortable, because as Kimberly (a classmate) mentioned, she hates it when people bite their nails. That doesn't mean there should be a law against it. Are we really so egotistical and selfish that we're suppose to scream "ME! ME! ME! I DON'T WANT TO SEE GAY PEOPLE!" and deny the rights to a human being?
  • You can't say children who are adopted will be bullied in school for having gay parents, because that's like taking the bullies side. You're technically telling the bullies that they're right and should bully anyone who's gay or has gay guardians because it's "wrong."
  • You can't say you're protecting the gay, because pulling a double standard and denying them rights does not in any way make it good. Just like the bully example, you're as right as the ones trying to cause physical harm on someone that's homosexual.
  • You can't say it would damage tradition, because tradition has been damaged plenty of times (arranged marriages are uncommon, blacks and whites can marry now, etc.)
  • You can't say marriage is purely about religion, because that's bullshit. As mentioned in "Adam and Steve - Together At Last" even if you marry in a church, you still need to go to city hall and get the effing paper.
And that's There's just no logical reason for against. I'm wondering how it's even possible to still fight against the issue and not let gay people marry.

I should also mention Carla argued with such passion when it was her turn O.o it was very epic of course, but it looked like she was about to start decapitating some heads xD.

On other news, I got a 92 on my Midterm for the college class. It was good BUT I STILL HAVE TO BEAT SILVIA AND RAUL!

And I day >:D


Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Halo: Reach

Just FYI, I haven't played the game yet since I made a deal with my brother a long time ago in regards to something else that costed me my first playthrough of Halo: Reach. But that's not what I'm writing about ^^

It's just that last night, my brother and dad went to the local midnight release of Halo: Reach. I had to stay and sleep because I had a quiz today, but I really wanted to go. Midnight releases are those things I constantly hear about and always want to go to, but never get the chance. I was glad at least my brother and dad were going though.

My dad took the camera so he could record and take pictures, but they went like at 11:30 p.m and the lines were short and there was almost no people. Not only that, but damn, was it a disappointment. Each and every single person was wearing black and standing completely still and silent in the line. What, don't tell me you were trying to blend away? Come on, people! If you're gonna go to a midnight release of a game, then at least show some enthusiasm Dx It was like just my little brother and father were excited about the game. If you're not willing to show how proud you are to buy a video game at midnight of a weeknight and be a nerd, then...well why would you go to a midnight release? O.o

As far as I know, other places were full of screaming fans. In fact the best place to go to for the release was probably at Redmond Town Center in Washington since the Bungie team was there seeing as how this is their final game.

Maybe it's just Miami that has epic fail fans? Or just that ONE Best Buy? Bleh, another reason to move to a more populated and joyful city. But sigh. It would have been so great to be there.

Anyways, I'm so happy I got the game! I woke up this morning and the package was right there, in front of the TV. It made me think of Christmas morning when the presents are right there under the tree, magically having appeared in just one night.

It took me and my brother about a half-year to save up for it, since I started saving right after I bought Mass Effect 2 (which I think also took me a half-year to save up for) and so my dad put in a few more money in so we could buy the version with Dr. Halsey's diary. I started reading it this morning before going to school and I love it so far! Half the time I don't even know what it is that she's explaining, but I adore it anyways. I'll have to google in a bunch of the terms though xD.

(And yes, I took the pictures. That's why they're not perfectly lined or anything xD. Next time, I'm asking my dad to do it :P)
~ Becky

P.S: I've been sort of obsessed with the song Pure Imagination, and yesterday, I found a really good cover for it. I know it must be odd to shift from Halo: Reach to Willy Wonka, but bleh, I can't help adding it here :D

(Says she has a new version, but I'll just post this one for now)

Monday, July 26, 2010

Yay! Finally finished summer courses!

Technically, Wednesday was suppose to be my last day, the day of the final, but my teacher's busy. So she gave us the final to take home, and so I did it today and turned it in before leaving. Hooray! I'm done. I guess that means I should start writing again. Plus, I've thought of a few more characters. They're mostly used for role plays...but I feel like later putting them in a story. We'll see ^^

Saturday, July 24, 2010

New favorite comedian!

Quick update. Just yesterday did I find out about feminist comedian, Sarah Haskins.

Here's two of her segments (some of my favorites):

Friday, June 18, 2010

Arkana design done by my friend

So since in high school I ended up becoming friends with the artistic people, (who happen to be incredibly nice O.o) I asked my friend Emily to draw Arkana and create her clothes and weapon. I think it came out pretty cool:
It's on her deviant art right now, under VampireNote13 I believe. I think it came out pretty awesome. The simple, yet effective, steampunk feeling it gives out is awesome.

She's also drawing my other character, Jacob. I'll post that picture when she's done.

(And it's...also copyrighted by Emily and me xD)

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Rewriting a Story

So when I was around 11 or 12, I wrote a novella (at the time I called it a novel, psh. Actually, I think it was just a short story :P) which was basically a Medieval Fantasy Europe story with a 12 year old (going on 13) prince who meets an 11 year old witch. Blah, blah, blah stuff happens and I finish the story at about 100 pages with humongous font and gave it to my best friend for Christmas (she gave me a story in return, called "Violet".) So years later I decide to rewrite. I rewrite the reasons, the back story, the characters grow older, they gain flaws and talents, even added Dragons, I try to make it as Grey and Gray Morality as possible, and I end up writing the intro.

Then I go to a bookstore and when I pull a fantasy book out, it was almost always set in a Medieval Fantasy Europe setting. I already knew it was popular, but I never realized how many authors were doing it until that day. I know Tolkien popularized it, and it's because of him I was writing my story in the first place, but I don't really want to do that anymore. I thought over my story and tried to figure out what to do. But sadly, I couldn't come up with anything.

Then, when I was reading the tv trope page (it's my favorite site now xD) about the anime adaptation of Howl's Moving Castle, I read this:
...directed by Hayao Miyazaki, very loosely based on the novel. Now, instead of a Medieval European Fantasy, the land of Ingary is a Steam Punk world filled with both technology and magic.
It's not surprising seen as how it's Hayaoi Miyasaki (there's always a pattern like that in his films xD but I'm not complaining of course) but it bought forth an idea. Going from medieval epic fantasy to steam punk!

There are different types of Punk related to steam punk, so I'll have to play around with them. I know this has also been done before, but steam punk is something I've never tried and never thought I would try. But I could try to combine both (and I know that has been done too, I'm not trying to make it sound like I'm the first person to think of it) and write my story.

Of course, I'm still writing my SciFi story and Broken, and there's hundreds more ideas in my head, so for now, it's just in the planning stages. But I do want to do something more than just medieval world and put some effort in it (because don't worry, I'm not just taking Steam Punk and running with it. I have to work hard on creating the world.)

There you have it. My plan :D

P.S: It might sound like I'm trying to mock stories with medieval settings, but I'm really not. I'm just trying to do something I've never tried before. Besides, how could I ever mock something like Dragon Age. It's because of that game I wanted to add dragons to the story.

(Wow, some of the pictures came out too big xDD))
"Science and science fiction have done a kind of dance over the last century... The scientists make a finding. It inspires science fiction writers to write about it, and a host of young people read the science fiction and are excited, and inspired to become scientists...which they do, which then feeds again into another generation of science fiction and science..."
- Carl Sagan, in his message to future explorers of Mars.