Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Have to study more...

Yeah, I failed a bio test...

BUT
No complaining. No making excuses. I'm just gonna go study for my psychology quiz tomorrow and my English test on Friday. I've been studying most of the afternoon anyways and I'll keep studying tomorrow. Then on Friday, after school, I'll read chapter 3 from my biology text book and then do carnegie.

Although....I'll be RPing.

-shot-

On other news, I finally got to see the first Star Trek movie. I'd seen a few episodes from the series, some others from the Next Generation, and the new movie that came out last year, but this one was AWESOME! It was better than everything else. And it proved to me that I don't need to write a space marine in a story for it to be interesting. Because I mean...great science fiction writers manage and I've never really figured out how. But for whatever reason, the movie somehow made me find a path for such a thing.

Also, just to exemplify how much a space nerd I am, in the movie, when Kirk finally gets to see the Enterprise after so many years, there's like 10 minutes of epic music and Kirk going all teary eye.

Me and my dad: Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, it's THE ENTERPRISE! AND IT DOESN'T LOOK LIKE A PIZZA CUTTER!

Brother and mom: ...okay....5 minutes have passed....still the same shot.

Yeah, I'm lame xD. But I figured that was also the audiences reaction when watching the movie when it first came out. Also, I think it's because of that movie that McCoy is now officially my favorite character. I don't know why he had a jesus beard while wearing a disco outfit (who knows he's been doing these past years?) but I adored his sense of humor.

I guess today we'll be watching Wrath of Khan.



Yeah, you all saw that coming.

Also, I've been RPing again and got to bring back some much missed characters I made a while ago. I edited this picture that shows the faces of my characters (now as long as it doesn't get me in legal trouble xD...)
Dream, Legion, Archangel, and Dragon (-hint, hint, bible references :D)

So yeah. Off to study. Then Star Trek movie. Then RPing. I can honestly say everything's calm right now.
~Becky

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Halo: Reach

Just FYI, I haven't played the game yet since I made a deal with my brother a long time ago in regards to something else that costed me my first playthrough of Halo: Reach. But that's not what I'm writing about ^^

It's just that last night, my brother and dad went to the local midnight release of Halo: Reach. I had to stay and sleep because I had a quiz today, but I really wanted to go. Midnight releases are those things I constantly hear about and always want to go to, but never get the chance. I was glad at least my brother and dad were going though.

My dad took the camera so he could record and take pictures, but they went like at 11:30 p.m and the lines were short and there was almost no people. Not only that, but damn, was it a disappointment. Each and every single person was wearing black and standing completely still and silent in the line. What, don't tell me you were trying to blend away? Come on, people! If you're gonna go to a midnight release of a game, then at least show some enthusiasm Dx It was like just my little brother and father were excited about the game. If you're not willing to show how proud you are to buy a video game at midnight of a weeknight and be a nerd, then...well why would you go to a midnight release? O.o

As far as I know, other places were full of screaming fans. In fact the best place to go to for the release was probably at Redmond Town Center in Washington since the Bungie team was there seeing as how this is their final game.



Maybe it's just Miami that has epic fail fans? Or just that ONE Best Buy? Bleh, another reason to move to a more populated and joyful city. But sigh. It would have been so great to be there.

Anyways, I'm so happy I got the game! I woke up this morning and the package was right there, in front of the TV. It made me think of Christmas morning when the presents are right there under the tree, magically having appeared in just one night.





It took me and my brother about a half-year to save up for it, since I started saving right after I bought Mass Effect 2 (which I think also took me a half-year to save up for) and so my dad put in a few more money in so we could buy the version with Dr. Halsey's diary. I started reading it this morning before going to school and I love it so far! Half the time I don't even know what it is that she's explaining, but I adore it anyways. I'll have to google in a bunch of the terms though xD.





YAY!
(And yes, I took the pictures. That's why they're not perfectly lined or anything xD. Next time, I'm asking my dad to do it :P)
~ Becky

P.S: I've been sort of obsessed with the song Pure Imagination, and yesterday, I found a really good cover for it. I know it must be odd to shift from Halo: Reach to Willy Wonka, but bleh, I can't help adding it here :D



(Says she has a new version, but I'll just post this one for now)

Thursday, September 9, 2010

My Writing...

I'll admit, I'm not the greatest young writer ever. I still have a LOT to learn, and I usually welcome criticism. But nothing hurts more...than two C's and a D in your college ENC-1101 class because you:
  • Can't organize for shiz.
  • Have terrible sentence structure
AUGH! I should have known. I should have effing known! Even despite turning down most of the compliments I get, somewhere in my head, I've still gotten used to people telling me I'm a good writer. Somewhere in my frakking head I've gone "aw hell yeah, I'm a great writer" but as it turns out...I'm half-decent, or maybe worst >_<

Yeah, this is terrible. I've survived through school's English classes on talent and luck alone. There is no freaking way I can do it for this college class or the next classes I get. And...dammit, I call myself a writer, and yet when I saw those grades and the notes my professor put, my eye started twitching and I got so blank. I passed out in my bed so I wouldn't have some sort of mental breakdown again.

Yeah, I'm an idiot. But ugh, I have to get better. Have to stop procrastinating.
On another note, it's my father's birthday, and right now, he's reading a looooooooooong letter written by one of his past friends on gmail. Both him and my dad are photographers apparently, among other things. Gha! It's so unfair. No one should ever be good at so many things unless they are Leonardo da Vinci.

Okay, okay, I'm done whinnying...for today Dx but really, both him and my dad have some sort of natural talent for photographs. One of them had the picture of some random house back in Ecuador. I think that's what most Latin American countries have in common, and what they differ from the U.S houses I've seen. After all, the houses are always different, mostly because people build and paint them themselves. Here, everything is just cookie cutter places. It's hard to really distinguish anything.


~Becky

P.S: I wonder why I avoided writing the actual curse word here????

Sunday, September 5, 2010

I really SHOULD continue writing First Impressions

So a few weeks back...or well, months back in summer I decided to start writing a script for a reconstruction of american high school movies and shows. So we've got the common-average new girl, Amy, the tough jock girl who needs to prove herself to the guys, Scar, the jock meat head who doesn't care about anything, Ryan, the flamboyant one, Mike, the weirdo, bubbly art freak, Kate (my friend, Emily, is drawing her with bubble pink hair and rainbow eyelashes xD), the libby, queen of school, Isabella, her minions, hot boyfriend, Zac, and the freak, emo who wishes to express his "deepest and darkest of his soul" into art, Sean.

So I have the pilot down, and I was going to start on the second one. I think I'll be able to finish as soon as I figure out what the hell is the plot of this story O.o

Or maybe I'll just make it up as I go along.

See yah!
~Becky

Friday, September 3, 2010

Doesn't like any of us, just the idea

(FUTURE EDIT: This is so dumb. So dumb. But I have a choice: delete all old entries, or leave them up as a reminder that we were all once odd little fourteen year olds. So I decided to keep it and change the names except for like one or two)

School's been crazy, I can't keep my mouth shut, but I won't say much of that. There's some other things I shall complain about. What's a blog without a bit of high school drama? So here it goes. Sigh. Begin boring story now :D

Last year when I met the art people and most of us were freshies with the exception of Emily, there was this guy whom I shall refer to as K. K was sort of...overly friendly, but still, he was an okay guy. He was a senior, became friends with us, and finally graduated. He dated a girl name Lynn at some point, but they broke up after a few weeks, especially after a girl (friend of Lynn) started a rumor that K was going to fight some other guys because of her...or something. Hell, I don't remember. Anyways, after the first week of school was finally over, Jade and her brother invited me, Kate, another friend, and K to go to the mall, and we just went. Overall, it was a day where we just spent running around a lot, but Jade made an offhand comment about K having asked her before, and her having in turn, asked the rest of us. I didn't think much of it.

K gave me, Kate, and Jade chocking-bear-hugs and was again, overly friendly. I reached the conclusion a long time ago he was just that type of person and didn't think anything of it. He even grabbed Kate--the shortest of us all--and carried her over his shoulder, and kept mentioning that he used to like her...and something about another girl back in the old school being obsessed with him. It was...odd.

Jade and her brother had to leave early, but we went to go see a movie (The Expendables). Now here...here comes me being an idiot. I told Maria about it, and she told me I wasn't in the point of no return, but here is me being a complete and utter dumbass. I suppose we were half-holding hands through the movie. Not only that, but he also kept hugging Kate and letting her rest up against him. If I moved, he would look at me, if Kate moved, he would look at her.

Awkward, stupid, and I guess we sort of led him on, so it was fucked up on my part, especially because I'm not actually interested in him but...anyways.

Movie ends. It was awesome. We walk out. Gave him my phone number. I leave. End of story.

Kind of.

Next morning, I get a message from Jade asking me what I thought about K. I wanted to ignore it at first, and I managed to sidetrack her enough, but I had to ask her on Monday, and since she wasn't there, we were texting. I also told Emily the story, but she told me to watch out, since K can act like a manwhore.

So we kept talking, on Wednesday K texted me and I decided to answer. He spoke about something that was making him feel down, and finally he asked me if I liked him or not, and added that he wanted to know because he likes another girl and wanted to know who he had a better chance with.

I was on the phone with Maria when I got this. Me = laughing. Maria = "oh hell fuck no, that asshole, what the fuck is wrong with him!?"

Yeah, she took it a lot worse than I did, but I went with it. So I texted him something like, "Oh wow, I feel so honored to be 2nd choice." He answered, "It's a tie actually." And told me that the girl he liked was Jade.

My face: O______________O

He told me that the reason was that he knew it wasn't going anywhere with her...so that really just means he's using me as a last resort and "oh she showed interest in me maybe I should go with her." Which is beyond messed up, and it's also pretty clear that he likes Kate. So I told him he had to figure out who it was that he liked the most--which I now realize makes it sound like I like him--before asking out anyone. Apparently he had already asked Jade out and she turned him down, but again, I gave him no answer. I told him to think about it and tell me later.

I dragged Jade away from everyone on Thursday after school to ask her about it, and she admitted that it was true, but she hadn't told anyone. We were both laughingly freaking out. I didn't get to talk to her for long, but on lunch today, Jade showed me a few of the messages K sent her.

Not only is he going "hey, sexy" effectively creeping her out, but he also asked her that if next week when we go to the movies again (since we ended up planning it) if he could hold her hand. She didn't answer to that, apparently finding no way to make him understand she's not interested. When we spoke with Emily and a few other friends during lunch, they told us he likes Kate, or had said so, but had also apparently liked every single female friend he ever had. He even texted Emily something like "I'm looking for a date, but so far no luck." Oh okay. So this is a meat market to him?

After school, I guess both me and Jade were rather freaked out at what had happened, but we were still laughing, because it's all so stupid. Did he forget me and Jade are friends? Did he truly forget that, even after a few days earlier of seeing us walk alongside and talk while at the mall? Didn't he think that if Jade was getting sick of his bullshit she would have shown me the text messages as I told her about what he said?

According to Emily, it's always been like this. It's gotten to a point where I think he doesn't necessarily like any of us, he just likes the idea of being with someone. Jade has turned him down repetitively and he doesn't get the hint. Now, maybe he truly does like her and he's using me as a last resort. I'm rather annoyed at that, but not really angry.

What irks me is the fact that if he truly liked Jade he would probably go only after her, not have one or even two other girls as last resorts if things didn't go bad. That either means that he'll be using me or Kate as girlfriends to attempt to make Jade jealous, or that he'll forget about any sort of "feelings" he had for Jade because they weren't there in the first place.

Emily said he hadn't had any friends prior to meeting them, so maybe he's just plain lonely, and now scared that he's out of high school and doesn't necessarily know what to do. But he doesn't need to use the rest of us as some sort of shitty paths to happiness, let alone toy with all of us like we were a bunch of dumbasses who wouldn't know what he was doing.

And if he expects us to fight for him, then he's an idiot, nothing more, nothing else.

I've met plenty of people that have said they loved someone, but had just simply been in love with the idea of falling in love. I didn't think much of it until now. Is this really what the entire freaking world is coming to? Just us running around and trying to find someone because heaven forbid we end up single? Jeez.

Anyways, I'm not too worried about it, because I don't think either Kate nor Jade are stupid enough to fall for him, and I know he won't be trying anything with me. Maybe it would help if I could tell him all this, but chances are he's going to either start calling me a jealous bitch or just not listen at all. I suppose I should try either way, but I'll wait a little while.

~Becky
"Science and science fiction have done a kind of dance over the last century... The scientists make a finding. It inspires science fiction writers to write about it, and a host of young people read the science fiction and are excited, and inspired to become scientists...which they do, which then feeds again into another generation of science fiction and science..."
- Carl Sagan, in his message to future explorers of Mars.