Friday, September 3, 2010

Doesn't like any of us, just the idea

(FUTURE EDIT: This is so dumb. So dumb. But I have a choice: delete all old entries, or leave them up as a reminder that we were all once odd little fourteen year olds. So I decided to keep it and change the names except for like one or two)

School's been crazy, I can't keep my mouth shut, but I won't say much of that. There's some other things I shall complain about. What's a blog without a bit of high school drama? So here it goes. Sigh. Begin boring story now :D

Last year when I met the art people and most of us were freshies with the exception of Emily, there was this guy whom I shall refer to as K. K was sort of...overly friendly, but still, he was an okay guy. He was a senior, became friends with us, and finally graduated. He dated a girl name Lynn at some point, but they broke up after a few weeks, especially after a girl (friend of Lynn) started a rumor that K was going to fight some other guys because of her...or something. Hell, I don't remember. Anyways, after the first week of school was finally over, Jade and her brother invited me, Kate, another friend, and K to go to the mall, and we just went. Overall, it was a day where we just spent running around a lot, but Jade made an offhand comment about K having asked her before, and her having in turn, asked the rest of us. I didn't think much of it.

K gave me, Kate, and Jade chocking-bear-hugs and was again, overly friendly. I reached the conclusion a long time ago he was just that type of person and didn't think anything of it. He even grabbed Kate--the shortest of us all--and carried her over his shoulder, and kept mentioning that he used to like her...and something about another girl back in the old school being obsessed with him. It was...odd.

Jade and her brother had to leave early, but we went to go see a movie (The Expendables). Now comes me being an idiot. I told Maria about it, and she told me I wasn't in the point of no return, but here is me being a complete and utter dumbass. I suppose we were half-holding hands through the movie. Not only that, but he also kept hugging Kate and letting her rest up against him. If I moved, he would look at me, if Kate moved, he would look at her.

Awkward, stupid, and I guess we sort of led him on, so it was fucked up on my part, especially because I'm not actually interested in him but...anyways.

Movie ends. It was awesome. We walk out. Gave him my phone number. I leave. End of story.

Kind of.

Next morning, I get a message from Jade asking me what I thought about K. I wanted to ignore it at first, and I managed to sidetrack her enough, but I had to ask her on Monday, and since she wasn't there, we were texting. I also told Emily the story, but she told me to watch out, since K can act like a manwhore.

So we kept talking, on Wednesday K texted me and I decided to answer. He spoke about something that was making him feel down, and finally he asked me if I liked him or not, and added that he wanted to know because he likes another girl and wanted to know who he had a better chance with.

I was on the phone with Maria when I got this. Me = laughing. Maria = "oh hell fuck no, that asshole, what the fuck is wrong with him!?"

Yeah, she took it a lot worse than I did, but I went with it. So I texted him something like, "Oh wow, I feel so honored to be 2nd choice." He answered, "It's a tie actually." And told me that the girl he liked was Jade.

My face: O______________O

He told me that the reason was that he knew it wasn't going anywhere with that really just means he's using me as a last resort and "oh she showed interest in me maybe I should go with her." Which is beyond messed up, and it's also pretty clear that he likes Kate. So I told him he had to figure out who it was that he liked the most--which I now realize makes it sound like I like him--before asking out anyone. Apparently he had already asked Jade out and she turned him down, but again, I gave him no answer. I told him to think about it and tell me later.

I dragged Jade away from everyone on Thursday after school to ask her about it, and she admitted that it was true, but she hadn't told anyone. We were both laughingly freaking out. I didn't get to talk to her for long, but on lunch today, Jade showed me a few of the messages K sent her.

Not only is he going "hey, sexy" effectively creeping her out, but he also asked her that if next week when we go to the movies again (since we ended up planning it) if he could hold her hand. She didn't answer to that, apparently finding no way to make him understand she's not interested. When we spoke with Emily and a few other friends during lunch, they told us he likes Kate, or had said so, but had also apparently liked every single female friend he ever had. He even texted Emily something like "I'm looking for a date, but so far no luck." Oh okay. So this is a meat market to him?

After school, I guess both me and Jade were rather freaked out at what had happened, but we were still laughing, because it's all so stupid. Did he forget me and Jade are friends? Did he truly forget that, even after a few days earlier of seeing us walk alongside and talk while at the mall? Didn't he think that if Jade was getting sick of his bullshit she would have shown me the text messages as I told her about what he said?

According to Emily, it's always been like this. It's gotten to a point where I think he doesn't necessarily like any of us, he just likes the idea of being with someone. Jade has turned him down repetitively and he doesn't get the hint. Now, maybe he truly does like her and he's using me as a last resort. I'm rather annoyed at that, but not really angry.

What irks me is the fact that if he truly liked Jade he would probably go only after her, not have one or even two other girls as last resorts if things didn't go bad. That either means that he'll be using me or Kate as girlfriends to attempt to make Jade jealous, or that he'll forget about any sort of "feelings" he had for Jade because they weren't there in the first place.

Emily said he hadn't had any friends prior to meeting them, so maybe he's just plain lonely, and now scared that he's out of high school and doesn't necessarily know what to do. But he doesn't need to use the rest of us as some sort of shitty paths to happiness, let alone toy with all of us like we were a bunch of dumbasses who wouldn't know what he was doing.

And if he expects us to fight for him, then he's an idiot, nothing more, nothing else.

I've met plenty of people that have said they loved someone, but had just simply been in love with the idea of falling in love. I didn't think much of it until now. Is this really what the entire freaking world is coming to? Just us running around and trying to find someone because heaven forbid we end up single? Jeez.

Anyways, I'm not too worried about it, because I don't think either Kate nor Jade are stupid enough to fall for him, and I know he won't be trying anything with me. Maybe it would help if I could tell him all this, but chances are he's going to either start calling me a jealous bitch or just not listen at all. I suppose I should try either way, but I'll wait a little while.


1 comment:

  1. Anonymous8:08 PM

    .... I don't recall ever meeting the bitey dude. Lucky me?

    And yeah, teen/tween-aged girls are totally into the fall in love for fun thing. I think.


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